SOME OF MY EXPERIENCES IN TEACHING HOLINESS
I
once received a letter from one of the most devoted young officers I
know, in which he said, "I love holiness more and more, but I am
just about discouraged. It seems to me that I shall never be able to
teach holiness, for it seems that I get things too straight, or not
straight enough." God bless him! I think I know just how he
feels. One day, a few months after I got the blessing of holiness, I
felt most gloomy about my inability to get people sanctified. I knew,
beyond the possibility of a doubt, that I had a clean heart; but,
somehow, I felt I couldn't properly teach others how to get it.
That
morning I met a certain brother who gets more people sanctified than
any man I know, and I asked him, "How shall I teach holiness so
that my people will get it?" His reply was, "Load and fire,
load and fire."
Light
broke in on me at once. I saw that it was my business to pray and
study my Bible and talk with those who had the blessing, until I got
myself so loaded that it would almost talk itself, and then fire away
as best I could, and that it was God's business to make the people
receive the truth and become holy.
That
was on the Saturday. The next day, I went to my people loaded with
truth, backed by love and faith, and I fired as hard and straight as
I knew how, when lo! twenty people came to the Penitent-form for
holiness. I had never seen anything like that before in my life, but
I have seen it many times since.
From
then till now I have attended strictly to my part of the business,
and trusted God to do His part, and I have had some success
everywhere I have gone. But everywhere, also, Satan has sorely
tempted me at times, especially when the people hardened their hearts
and would not believe and obey. Then I have often felt that the
trouble must be in my way of preaching the truth. At one time the
devil would say, "You are too straight; you will drive all the
people away." Then again he would remark, "You are not
straight enough, and that is the reason the people don't get holy."
In this way I have suffered very much at times. But I have always
gone to the Lord with my trouble and told Him that He knew my earnest
desire was to preach the truth just right, so that the people would
love and trust Him with perfect hearts.
Then
the Lord has comforted me, and shown me that the devil was tempting
me, in order to get me to stop preaching holiness. A few times,
professors of religion have come to me and told me I was doing more
harm than good. But they were the kind Paul describes, "who have
a form of godliness, but deny the power thereof," and I have
followed his command, "From such turn away," and have not
dared to listen to them any more than to the devil himself. And so
I have kept at it, through evil report and through good report, and
the dear Lord has never left me alone, but has stood by me and given
me the victory, and I have constantly seen some one led into the
glorious light of liberty and perfect love. Satan has tried in many
ways to get me to stop preaching holiness, for he knew that if he
could get me to stop he would soon get me to sin, and so overthrow me
altogether. But the Lord put a godly fear in me from the beginning,
by calling my attention to Jeremiah 1:6, 8 and 17. The last verse
made me very careful to speak just what the Lord said. Then Ezekiel
2:4-8 and 3:8- 11 impressed me very much. In these Scriptures the
Lord commanded me to speak His truth as He gave it to me, whether the
people would hear or not. In Ephesians 4:15, He told me how I was to
preach it - that is, "in love."
I
then saw that I must preach the truth Just as straight as I possibly
could, but that I must be careful always to keep my heart full of
love for the people to whom I was talking. I read in 2 Corinthians
12:14, 15, how Paul loved the people. He said, "I seek not
yours, but you ... and I will very gladly spend and be spent for you;
though the more abundantly I love you, the less I be loved."
Then in Acts 20:20 and 27, "I kept back nothing that was
profitable to you ... for I have not shunned to declare to you all
the counsel of God." This made me feel that to withhold the
truth of holiness from the people - which is necessary to their
eternal salvation - was worse than keeping back bread from starving
children, or as the murder of souls is worse than the murder of
bodies. So I earnestly prayed to the Lord to help me love the people,
and preach the whole truth to them, though they hate me for it - and,
bless Him! He answered my prayer. There are three points in teaching
holiness that the Lord has led me to emphasize continually.
First,
that men cannot make themselves holy, any more than the Ethiopian can
change his skin, or the leopard his spots. That no amount of good
works, of self-sacrifice and denial, of labours for the salvation of
others, can cleanse the heart, can take out the roots of pride,
vanity, temper, impatience, fear and shame of the Cross, lust,
hatred, emulation, strife, self-indulgence and the like, and in their
stead put unmixed, perfect love, peace, long-suffering, gentleness,
goodness, faith, meekness, and temperance."
Truly,
millions who have laboured to purify the secret springs of their
hearts, only to fail, can testify, "It is not of works lest any
man should boast."
Second,
I keep prominent the fact that the blessing is received by faith. A
poor woman wanted some grapes from the king's garden for her sick
boy. She offered the gardener money, but he would not sell the
grapes. She came again, and met the king's daughter, and offered her
money for the grapes. The daughter said, "father is a king; he
does not sell his grapes." Then she led the poor woman into the
king's presence, and told him her story, and he gave her as many as
she wanted.
Our
God, your Father, is King of kings. He will not sell His holiness and
the graces of His Spirit, but He will give them to all who will ask
in simple, childlike faith. Truly He will. "Ask, and you shall
receive. Where is boasting, then? It is excluded. By what law? Of
works? Nay: but by the law of faith ... Do we then make void the law
through faith? God forbid: yea, we establish the law." By faith
the law of God is written on our hearts, so that when we read the
command, "Thou shalt love the Lord your God with all your
heart," we find a law of love in us because we have within us a
law that corresponds to the command. The Apostle says, "With the
heart man believes to righteousness" (Rom. 10:10), and that
statement is true to our experience, for where real heart-faith is,
it makes the impatient man patient, the proud man humble, the
lustful man chaste, the covetous man benevolent, the quarrelsome man
meek, the liar truthful, the man who hates loving; it turns misery
into joy, and gives peace and constant comfort.
Third,
I emphasize the truth that the blessing is to be received by faith
NOW. The man who expects to get it by works will always have
something more to do before he can claim the blessing, and so never
comes to the point where he can say, "The blessing is now mine.
But the humble soul, who expects to get it by faith, sees that it is
a gift; and, believing that God is as willing to give it now as at
some future time, trusts and receives it at once.
By
thus urging the people to expect the blessing "just now," I
have sometimes had them get it just while I was talking. People who
had often been to the Penitent-form, and had wrestled and prayed for
the blessing, have received it while sitting in their seats listening
to the simple "word of faith which we preach." "Bless
the Lord, O my soul; and all that is within me, bless His holy name
"(Ps. 103:1).
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